The human ego has built some wonderful things. Health Care, Cars, Trains, Education, Medicine. And we keep arguing over truth and fantasy. Yes we have ego and it's my ego that commands my own choices on how I shall spend my time.
What is truth?
The last three words in that question reveals my biggest weakness.
I am looking for a universal fix. This is not a musical or a pantomime.
Knowing how complex my life has been. I recently listened to our children telling me what's wrong with my wishes.
Humans came into this world needing only love and food and acceptance.
I deeply admire heroes like Maya Angelou, Leonard Cohen, and my friend Jane who is no longer on this earth.
I love all the people who have learned wisdom, who can argue for the right and wrong of our time on this planet.
As a child I did not have courage. I kept my thoughts to myself until I knew who I was talking to. When I served the Unitarian Fellowship as a Lay Chaplain, the fit was easy for the first part. Be inclusive, volunteer regularly, respect all members.
Earlier life was not so simple. A common phrase directed at me, was "you'll never amount to anything" which I think was due to being slow, not cleaning up after myself. Not knowing how to fit in to the family. I isolated myself as much as I could because I simply didn't belong here.
I watched TV. It was easy. I learned about the world and my place in it by TV sitcoms. I loved to perform easy things. Poems I learned by heart. Music in the school choir.
Some people knew I was a daydreamer, allowing myself to fantasize being a sitcom actor, being famous, getting the adulation given to beautiful women who everyone adored. Constantly looking at my appearance, looking for proof that I was special.
Rather than help my mother with washing dishes or dusting furniture, I would enter my dreamworld whenever possible. Study the half hour sitcoms because I couldn't watch dramas that were about real world difficulties.
If you are still with me you might be thinking I was a narcissist. My friend deduced my weakness. My aunts deduced my lack of being anything. Not brave, not smart. The world was too much. I spent the first part of my life fantasizing what I would become. Most people realized I was nothing good or bad. The world was too difficult for me. I frequently walked home from school in tears.
But thankful I was not male. I couldn't fight anyone. Couldn't spend time questioning how the world worked and what my place would be in this. I daydreamed.
Since then other souls came to my rescue even though they didn't know it. Then one day working for community services I heard a person say I had low self esteem. I thought I should grow out of it. That I should be taking care of others not building my own ego. This was a shock because I tried so hard to focus on the needs of others and take myself out of the picture.
Now I see and hear this world of big egos willing to kill, bomb and control this planet and congratulate themselves for being in control.
Phew! Imagine that. High ranking leaders absorbed by their own egos. But then this is patriarchy. Training males to do what they're told, not thinking, just obeying orders. Where did we go wrong?
Don't get me wrong, I know we depend on the discipline and courage of military personnel from fighter to strategist to firefighters, frontline healers and politicians who work towards safety and healthcare for all. People who make the world safe by caring for people before everything else.
Meaning the only thing that counts is controlling others, even if not everyone is under control. This apparently is greatness. Control, power, money. Abusing the gender that gives birth trying to establish a world where humanity is simply the line workers providing the consumer and all its parts to this new religion we call THE ECONOMY.
Abusing the workers, staff, nature and intelligence to stop thinking and produce. Anyone who thinks knows this is heading to a universal collapse.
It began in the early centuries. Rulers, Kings, Queens, Explorers, Inventors, Healers, Teachers, Scientists -- anybody besides mothers, were taught to think in terms of greatness. Wealth, capital, science and how to serve the pecking order. This is so entrenched we think of preservation and justice, as a way to serve power rather than the other way around.
The pecking order is the layers of humanity in terms of how much power we have, now in what we do but what others think of us. How we look. Beauty, charm, talent, bravery, strength. How we serve those who are the top, how we keep the streets clean of rubbish. Sorry for telling everyone what to think.
Don't listen to me. But please look around and think about what you see and read and hear.
It's ridiculously contemptuous to keep replaying the games and thoughts of oligarchs. Yes they offer some brilliant ideas, but the focus on other planets as places to conquer just prolongs the mental illness of our species. That illness is attempting to find a solution in man's greatest sin, obsession.
The constant warmongering is the isolated ego competing for the most of what it wants. The ego is shallow and vain. The ego simply wants to win. Like the plans, desires of Donald Trump. He wants to be elevated to a god-like level. Fantasies of grandeur, being worshipped by millions is the driving force for a narcissist. Life itself is much more complex, too complex for our capitalist egos.
We adorn ourselves within our fantasies first. Do we seek fame or survival? The great man theory is not about emperors, kings or movie stars. Forget queens. Man can dream of being a fearless leader but not the queen, not since the witch hunts.
The Royal Family are confined to DNA, beauty queens are fantasies. We humans need to grow beyond fantasy. We can't be saved by fantasy. We can't be saved by ego. We can't compete for the crown because we don't have a functioning everlasting dream.
A few brave souls can't save the world. We have to all want to save the world even if we are not glorified or honoured. Saving the world is feeding it with what it needs most.
We, they, need to be recognized, nurtured and protected, not by battles, world wars, soccer, or trophy. The trophy we need to win in self respect, nurture, life, peace and love. And this must begin with ego, common sense, wisdom, nurture and an acceptance that we need one another.
Rather than think of great heroes, think mothers and fathers, plump and calm.
Forget wild contests in huge ships. Think science of nature, the shit of survival. The love for our lives and all others.
Forget Hitler, Trump or Musk. Think family.
💙 Are we successfully fitting into the needs of the day, keeping up with trends?
💛 There are more of "us" than there are "them"? How do we identify as "us"?
💛 What are the "us"? People who have the same colour skin?
💜 People who attend the same "church"? People who think alike?
💙 People who think? People who engage?
💜 💛 People who wear their identity on their hat?
💛 How can I be "sure" of "us" and not one of them?
Does it actually exist? Or is it simply the collection of thoughts humans elevate as real. Is it our ego which selects ideas believing they ...
