My Last Poem

Go ahead and share yours if you wish. Any words beyond this will be dark -- without hope. Why would I want to finish this story? to write a different one perhaps? it would be good to write a different story particularly since I dont have any way to predict the future mine or yours. I feel that the world of humans is disintergrating that we are overcome with different ideas and particularly love for our species of course this might be my vanity thinking my feelings represent everyone but then should I worry the world with my own dark thoughts? What is the purpose of sharing to let me dwell in self importance? to warn others of possible danger? to believe I have a special talent? I know I am not good at gathering news hard news. Things that have happened like WW 1 the commons or the takeover of power like Britain or Europe or Russia or the power of money over knowledge or the popularity of himself gating of the commons or the violence of misogyny racism capitalism the bank and emporers new clothes. Fame! Now that's another power! Media loves to hold up power as worthy of fame essential for news. Of course I could tell you whenever I feel good like winning the lottery or something! Something is better than nothing even in the spheer of public interest. Violence is newsworthy particularly if you are beautiful to look at. I know of people who are beautiful inside but this somehow doesnt get much air time. I understandy why (of course) air time is given to what sells what the reader longs for and sadly the meaning of life died before television .................

The Wealth of Friends and Family

I am currently sitting in the family living room. I trust my friends will not tell lies. They do not need to impress me. I am impressed with performances and my family and friends are beyond that. The people who live in my heart don't need to impress me. They are gathered in. They have come to my aid when I've needed it and I trust they see me not any show I might put on. I trust my ego is just something in me like teeth or blemishes. When I say I love you, its not about impression. It's about honesty.

Endless BAD news!

What does it achieve? Alienation from the group! Its easy to disengage from bad news than good news. It makes us feel we are not to blame. Blame! There's another reason we disengage. When it's so good there is nothing to be afraid of!. We can carry on believing we are okay and those who suffer brought it on themselves. This is how we create the space to think only how well we are doing. The world is working just fine because I am fine. More than anything we need to care for others not because we can congratulate ourselves on being fine but this whole project call the world is a mark of how and what we are doing. I know that if my neighbour is being battered its not my fault but fault is a means not an end. It lets me know how well I am doing and how distant I am towards the general public. We cannot press one button and change the world. We need to find ways to reach out and listen. We can't congratulate good fortune for ourselves. We can't blame ourselves either if we haven't done harm to others unless we did do something to hurt them. But we are not free to assume all is well if we are happy. This is a complex world. The killer reported on the news might not have done bad things and the good guy might not be good. Judging is useful for our own well being but it does not guarantee rightousness. I need to know what is happening even though it doesnt make me a good person. Good and bad. Oversimplifications. Only helps one to be smug and self satisfied. Those who have good education, nice homes, happy families did not necessarily deserve it. Winning awards, higher education, and good luck does not prove we deserved it, neither does bad luck means we deserve to suffer. Good and bad, rich and poor, right and wrong - are not indicators of our worth. Our minds and hearts are complex. What we feel and think is mostly about observation and opinion is about what we believe for our own satisfaction.

Who Are We?

 

Such a question is bound to receive contempt from many readers?

I know I am a woman in her seventies.

When I was younger I was pretty. vacuous and insecure. I would easily dissolve in tears. Because I watched my mother spend all her waking hours, cleaning, cooking and gardening. Sometimes she would sit down and light a cigarette. Her advice was short. But she was popular with men which was more of a hindrance than asset in the end.

In our family we were doers more than thinkers and so success or fame was out of reach. But we were practical people. I was happy to sit and draw, sing or act in plays. When I told my family I wanted to be a film star. They laughed.

Now I understand why.

Wealth, greed and beauty is a performance. Most of the advertised beliefs are directed toward the public to keep us in "the dream". I soon realized this was not happy-making. I even believed it was not necessary to be "a success". It was to keep the public occupied. 

We cannot be happy continuously trying to get ahead, feeling insecure whenever we hear of someone's success, trying to be top of the class.

Now I want everyone to be happy.

Shazam The Movie

 I watched this from beginning to end to try and find the meaning in the story.

All I can remember is the power displayed by the heroes. Becoming monsters, crushing ordinary people, and developing the power to blow them about, to become large, angry and scary.

Lots of loud sound, lots of rage, big monsters crushing ordinary people, then ordinary people rising above this with their own strength. It lasted for more than 2 hours, things blowing up, flying, falling down.

Big sound.

Antisemitism - We must stop it

 

https://www.myjewishlearning.com/article/anti-semitism-101/

I feel strongly that hatred of people who come from different histories, reveals hatred for humanity. And now that billionaires are blamed for ruling the world, we, humanity must find new ways to go forward.

Contempt for life itself is the cause of fear in our minds and hearts.

Happy Birthday Simon

Wishing you a lovely evening to finish off the beautiful day.

And may all your hopes come true.

much love Granny